I've written and rewritten this post over and over again. Each day, I have sat at my computer to write. But there's a heaviness to this post, even in the midst of great hope.
I almost wrote a post about seeking hope this weekend. I accidentally spilled a cup of water on my laptop and had to pay $750 to have it repaired. I was devastated, particularly because I'm in the midst of law school finals and need a computer. While processing this mess, I found hope in my ability to give myself grace for my mistake. Who doesn't have a beverage next to a laptop?!
But then something bigger happened. I pulled out my old laptop to use while mine was being fixed. I logged onto Facebook and read a message that broke my heart. A dear friend of mine, a fellow brain tumor survivor, ended her life this past weekend.
I sat on my couch in awe. How could I be concerned about money or laptops or exams when a young woman left this world at only age 20? How could my problems even matter in the midst of the pain and suffering she went through before making her decision to bring and end to things?
Friends, part of choosing hope is very bittersweet. When you choose hope, when you decide to focus on giving grace and finding peace, that makes you different. It separates you from those who won't or sadly can't find the strength in their struggles to choose hope.I would have given anything to give more hope to my friend. She couldn't see past her sadness to see that she was deeply loved. She was smart, kind, and beautiful. The world is truly at a loss without her. Today and every day, choose hope. Let others know that you are choosing hope, so that they may be uplifted by your positivity.
With Bittersweet Hope,
Sara
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